I miss my Dad!

It is weird that it has been 3 months today since Dad died. It feels like it has been an eternity and like it was just yesterday at the same time. Life is still a major roller coaster and probable will be for the rest of my life but we are learning to deal with it. I still can not quite say I am thankful for this trial because I miss him a lot and it is hard and sad. I miss him just being there, and all the silly things he would do. I miss the him being there to help with blessings and advice. I miss talking with him about the sporting events going on (I think he would be disappointed with the game last night :D). I just miss my Dad. I can say that I am thankful for the lessons that I have learned from this trial. They are lessons I don't think I would have learned or appreciated as well without this experience. I have learned how important and essential eternal families and eternal marriage is. Where would our family be without this blessing or knowledge? It has made going through this trial even possible. I have learned how much our family and friends love us and are there to support us. I have also learned how important it is to be there to love and support them like they do us. I have grown closer to all of my family and especially my Mom and my brothers and sisters. Going through trials together brings you closer then anything else can. I have grown closer to my Savior as I have come to truly realize that it is only through Him that I will be reunited with my Dad and all of our family. I have felt my love and appreciation for Him grow as I remember that He makes eternal life possible and He really does carry and feel my sorrow and pain. Last of all I am thankful for the opportunity this has given me to become a better person. Missing my Dad is a motivation to do and be better so I can be with him again. More importantly missing my earthly Dad has given me a tangible reminder me that I am missing my Heavenly Father as well and He is missing me. He wants me to live how I know is right so I can be with both of my Fathers again.